Promoting Word Study
Beholding Jesus means to develop a personal relationship with Jesus. We should study about Him, talk to Him, Honor Him, and worship Him. You know many people know Jesus and don’t worship Him. I didn’t in the past. I respected Him. I was thankful to Him for being my Savior but I wasn’t in love with Him. I didn’t worship Him. I didn’t involve Him in every part of my life. I was married to another, the law.
I was self-righteous and prideful. I did not receive Grace and I did not give mercy. I didn’t understand for a long time why that was a problem. But as of late I have been worshiping Jesus and I have entered into a personal relationship with Him. I study about Him. I write letters to Him. I talk to Him and lean on Him for support. You wouldn’t believe it but I have learned something, a lot of things, actually.
See I suffer from Dyspraxia. Developmental Dyspraxia is a chronic neurological disorder beginning in childhood that can affect planning of movements and co-ordination as a result of brain messages not being accurately transmitted to the body. It is like putting a bag of rice into a bottle. If I cut the hole in the bag of rice too big the rice goes out very fast and spills outside of the bottle. Then if you cut hole in the bag too small then the rice goes out very slow and filling the bottle takes forever.
The rice is equivalent to the sensory messages that our senses pickup. When I get stressed the rice starts spilling over and messages don’t get to my brain and when I relax the messages are slow and take a long time to process. As a result of the inconsistency things happen. For example, I get cut more. I drop things more, I trip more often and I forget things quicker. I get extremely emotional. I cry a lot and things stop making sense.